9/26/12

Hey nony nony

I'm tired.....................................

Those two words do not always come from a negative place. It's OK that I'm tired; I've earned it. The dark circles under my eyes and lines on my forehead are permanent damage from my son only sleeping  2-4 hours each night for the first 4 and a half years of his life.

People think that's an exaggeration but sadly it's not, it was very real or rather surreal and often foggy dreamlike. There are things I can't recall at all and arguments that I'm sure my husband wishes he couldn't, lol. I was literally not in my right frame of mind, how could I be?

We do what we have to do to take care of our kids.

Anything that sort of goes against the "norm" of society, or against what we've always believed something should be can be hard. So what's hard for me is hard for me and what's hard for someone else is hard for them. I think about the parents out there that are worried their child isn't going to live and here Zander is full of life. I think about the parents that have to deal with feeding tubes, wheel chairs, physical abnormalities, seizures, asthma, chemotherapy, dialysis and THOSE PARENTS AMAZE ME and INSPIRE ME!